wow is ‘08! this year’s countdown for me is superrrrrr weird. People are counting down infront of their tv but for me, i countdown at the toilet doing some business. a unique countdown in my life xD
btw, HAPPY NEW YEAR! now im looking forward to chinese new year! WAHAHAHA $$$$
well, welcome myself to wordpress.
This will be the first post, and it begins with this.
It was a sunday afternoon and i was at Police Academy(PA) playing/training for badminton. Although the playing/training made me feel lethargic but it is really fun and nice. When it was around 5pm my aunt packed her things and went for a shower, when she came back, she called me to visit my grandma and i know it was the same old sentence that she told me repeatedly over this few weeks. After my aunt said that she asked me, “do you know grandma is sick?” i was like huh?! what illness does she have?! and my aunt said “her back is very pain.” and i told my aunt that “tomorrow(which is today) i will go visit her, and i will surely tell my dad about grandma.” When i was on the bus, on my way home, i did not think much about this problem. When i reached home, i told my dad what my aunt told me and he was very shocked too, and my dad walked towards the phone and called my grandma house and told my grandpa that we will go visit grandma tomorrow.
i was at home, and still doesn’t know how serious her backache were. When i was at home today, i was very reluctant on going to my grandma house because laziness and all sorts of mood and feelings. But i still went to her house. When i had reached my grandma house my auntie was in her house and grandma was asleep. Shortly, my dad reached grandma’s house, my dad asked my aunt how is mother(which is grandma) and my aunt told my dad what the doctor said etc. etc. after saying, my aunt left my grandma house. My dad talked to my grandpa and both me and my dad was shocked to hear that my grandma fell down again. At a later time my grandma woked up, my dad went to her room and talked to her, awhile later i went in to her room. Grandma said something and she was very sad. She said that “I should just die, die is better than living the pain was terrible.” after she said that i totally had a very words cannot be filled sadness and i walked out of her room.
when i was on the way home and MRT, i really hope for my grandma to be better and i actually was praying. My mind was actually thinking of my childhood times when i grandparents were staying at my house and how disrespectful i was in the past to them. when they moved out of my house and not really want to visit them, i feel like i was some sort like a BIG FAILURE! I also think of how she looked after me when i was still little and all those good memories back then. I really… i also don’t know how to say a mixture of sadness and happiness in it.
I know that there’s a God around everybody. I really pray that my grandma’s back will actually feel alot better and not in pain. Now she cant even walk/walk properly. Please, not to have those reluctant feeling of not visiting them. I really really hope that nothing bad will happen and be heal! even if i have to do something for it i also will do it. I know that I am not a very absolutely good person but i really hope that the God around me will know my prayer!
This year for me had end with a very sad truth of life of a person, and i know that everyone will go through this process of 生, 老, 病, 死. and lastly, this chinese phrase now really makes alot alot alot of sense to me now” 失去了才懂得珍惜” this is very very true to me. To you all, you might think that I am bullshitting or whatever but after going through what I have been doing and seen, it might change ur Point Of View
well, today is the last day of ‘07. I hope all of you have a very nice new year ahead of your life and enjoy ur ‘08!
